There’s something absolutely touching about being around people you’re comfortable around, to know that there are people out there that care and think about you. That’s what we all want, isn’t it?
These past three days I’ve been bombarded with texts, Facebook wall posts and surprises at every turn. Just today a friend brought in a cake and an entire room wished me a happy birthday. Honestly, does that happen to many people? I remember joking on twitter that Friday would mark the beginning of ‘the world wide celebration.’ While a celebration of that scope did not exist this weekend, it certainly felt like I was a king for those days I experienced the love and care of all the friends and acquaintances I’ve come to know these past few months, years and for some since we were mere kids hanging out on the playground during recess. I wish I could live in this moment forever, but unfortunately that’s not how life goes. But I have the pictures to relive and remind me of how absolutely blessed I am right now.
So to all those that took the time to wish me well this weekend, I thank you. You have no idea how much it means to me right now. I truly feel alive right now.
Should have probably kept this in the twitter feed, but this collection by CXXVI for spring 2010 looks pretty rad too. I’m really feelin’ thehoodies they have in the online shop.
How I almost forgot it. After all these years, I still love it. And I still love you, Bouncing Souls. Come back from Europe and get your butts over here!
I’m feeling like I’m on top of the world again. At the same time, I feel like a jerk for coming to the rash conclusions that I made a while ago. But I’m not going to dwell that. I’m going to enjoy this moment. Things are looking good.
It’s currently 5:47 in the morning, it’s still dark outside and I’m running on 4 hours of sleep despite turning in early last night. I guess that’s one good thing about not being able to sleep well, I need to wake up early anyways. I have no idea how long I can keep up this 8 AM start time for this new job. It just seems way too gnarly to maintain over 4 months.
I didn’t think I’d ever say this, but I’m going to miss school this semester, especially with all the fun I had on campus this past fall. I’m finally enjoying life on campus, despite only being up there for 2 days a week. Now that I’m going to be heading to Surrey for work instead, it’s going to make me miss it even more. And when graduation hits, I’m going to be at a loss in how to fill that void. I wish I could be a student forever.
But anyways.
There are so many questions, so many conflicting feelings coming into this new year. Do I keep trucking on at Scotia or is my time really up? A part of me doesn’t want to leave. There’s some… unfinished business that needs to checked off before I go. Another part of me thinks the time is now. I’ve been there for over 2 years, and I don’t want to be seen as a lifer. I’m probably one of if not the oldest guy working in my area and one would see that as a sign to move on.
There’s also other matters that need to be dealt with soon. Like sucking it up and saying how I feel. I’m not very good at expressing how I feel at times. Heck, these posts don’t even tell the whole story. I guess there’s that fear of not getting the results I want. But if past experiences have taught me anything, it’s that it’s better to find closure in something rather than let it tear you up and leave it be.
Happiness is just outside my window Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour? Or is happiness a little more like knocking On your door, and you just let it in?
Happiness feels a lot like sorrow Let it be, you can’t make it come or go But you are gone – not for good but for now Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good
Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard Happiness was never mine to hold Careful child, light the fuse and get away ‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks
Happiness damn near destroys you Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor So you tell yourself, that’s probably enough for now Happiness has a violent roar
Happiness is like the old man told me Look for it, but you’ll never find it all But let it go, live your life and leave it …
