I'm closing in on five years since I've had this blog, and I guess that number in of itself is a milestone. I remember when I first started this: it was during my third year of university, my grand father had passed away earlier in the year and I was closing out on what was one of the shittiest years I've ever had at that point in my life. I find myself in a similar situation this time around, but with different circumstances, one where I'm beginning another transitional period in my life.
A lot has changed since then, but the only constant that I've noticed that seems to repeat itself is the fact that I'm still fighting through life. Which I guess is a good sign that I'm still thinking and trying to live as opposed to 'letting things happen.' I'm not running around scared about what's going to happen tomorrow, I feel as if I'm in control and compared to when I was 21, there is clarity in the things I'm actively doing.
What's interesting about maintaining a blog over a long period of time is having something to observe the change that you go through as a person. It's one thing to see it over a year, but it's another over a five year span. I've noticed my values, beliefs and morals, things that I've held onto forever, have all been challenged at some point. Some of those things I either continued to hold onto or I simply allowed it to die along the way. In the end, I'm happy with who I am as a person right now, which I guess is a blessing in of itself. I still have a lot of work to do to become the person I want to be, but I feel like I'm getting close.
Here's to another five.