You would think that at this point in my life, I’d have gotten used to saying it to people.
I don’t like the word or what it means. The idea of not seeing someone any time soon – another way of saying forever – frightens me. I guess I get too comfortable with people and my surroundings, and when something changes I start feeling a lil’ down. I’ve met so many awesome people in my life, I wish we could all just stay together.
The thing that sucks about being such an introvert is how hard things are that other people think are easy, especially when it comes to telling someone how you feel or making that move. I’ve learned the hard way that you can’t wait for things to happen – there either aren’t a whole lot of people who are that brash or they just don’t feel the same way I do to go for it. Maybe I just over-analyze things that shouldn’t be over thought, maybe that’s what’s stopping me from doing what I want to do.
Blink 182 – Wasting Time
Posted: September 16th, 2009
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Week one of school has already come and gone and already I’m feeling the pinch. I’ve got a massive 4000 word essay due at the end of October, I actually have to keep up with my readings for this distance education class I’m taking and finally this… policy analysis class I’m taking – while vital towards my career goals – is recipe for disaster. I don’t want to work, but I want the cheese that comes with it, you dig? Everything feels the same still: I’m going to bed at 3 in the morning, I’m waking up later and later and in terms of productivity, it’s non-existent.
Honestly, I’m kinda bummed that I’m starting school this semester. I felt that I had a legitimate shot at starting co-op this fall, but things just didn’t go my way. I don’t understand why – due to the lack of feedback I got on everything – but I guess that’s the way things roll.
On the bright side, I guess it gives me an opportunity to do things on campus that I’ve been reluctant to do for the past four years now: join and actually participate in a club, be a little more social, volunteer and…
I was jamming with my man Henry two days ago. We haven’t jammed together since first year. Quite a revealing session, as I realized how much inspiration was lost along the way when it came to actually trying to create something out of nothing musically. I had a notebook with riffs I wanted to use and build on, but one day it just stopped. These days, the fire to do something is burning brightly these days – more so than in previous years – but in this crazy time I live in, where deadlines and lowly distractions are all I know, it’s hard to find that time out of my day to actually focus and create something nice.
But if anything, what occured on Monday told me one thing: the drive is still there, no matter how crappy I am with this guitar. Aw right.
I’m a pretty stubborn guy when it comes to music. There have been countless attempts by friends over the years to share good music with me, only for me to revert back to the oldies that I’ve replayed 1000000 times over. When I listen to something that makes me stop and stare at the wall, I know I’ve hit a winner and unfortunately that hasn’t happened much since high school, which was during the era of music in which I loved almost everything I listened to. Since then, Coldplay and The Subways were the only bands that really put me in a trance.
One random night before I set off to Hawaii I ran into a bunch of Youtube videos by Zee Avi, a Malaysian artist living currently touring in the US. The first song I saw her perform was Kantoi and I was hooked. Think of her as a female version of Jack Johnson. Right now I’m just loving this.
Oh and listen to Monte, currently running away with being my favorite song so far. So many quotables in there…
I have returned from my trip to Hawaii! What I like about trips like these is that I gain an even bigger perspective of the world around me, seeing things I only thought existed in pictures. For instance, I learned that…
There exists water that actually looks clear and is colored blue rather than green and dark.
Not exactly new but a reaffirming lesson that women in bikinis are a beautiful thing – especially if there’s a Japanese woman in one.
People in Hawaii are short, unless you’re a tourist or just a freak of nature. I wasn’t Shaq tall over there, but I definitely felt Kobe tall.
Pacific Island chicks are hot too. Especially if they’re performing the hula in front of you.
Lava looks cool in person.
Everyone milks the ‘Aloha’ and ‘Mahalo’ greetings. Do Hawaiians actually say that as often as I was believed to? Or do they just do that in front of tourists?
Turtles look cool in person.
Even though paradise was great, I still missed home.