Listening to songs like these reaffirms my love for this band.
News for August 2011
‘Cause I’ve never had a good thing
And just like that…
…my academic career is over. My last final was today, and while I wish I felt as if I completely dominated it, it comes with it this sense of great closure to everything I’ve done all these years. The significance of this all probably won’t hit me until I convocate in the fall. But the fact that I won’t be going up to Burnaby Mountain for the same reasons anymore, I won’t have to buy highlighters, notebooks or touch my $200 graphing calculator – which will now become a paper weight… it all feels very strange now. It’s a little bit exciting, a little bit scary and a tad depressing when I think about it.
But on the flip side, I can’t wait until I get my bloody ‘alumni’ tag on my school e-mail address. When’s that supposed to happen, hey?
To be honest, I don’t really want to think past the end of this week. I guess it’s because I haven’t had much of a positive experience doing it. I don’t want to think too much about trying to find a job in the fall, because if my co-op job search taught me anything, it’s going to be tough for someone in my situation without a whole lot of credentials. I don’t want to worry about whether this isn’t really the end of academia for me, that I might have to trudge through school again. And I don’t want to worry about money. The only things I want to think about right now is wondering if I’ll have fun in Cuba next week, trying to figure out how to play ‘Why Georgia’ by John Mayer on the guitar and why I still suck at League of Legends. I want to worry about stupid stuff, not things that could cause a world of problems for me down the road.
Then there are the things I regret. I regret not being more confident during the first couple of years out of high school, that it took me so long to realize that I can be just as, if not better than the next person. I wish I met more people and held onto those that I got to know. At the same time, I feel as if I didn’t totally waste my time. I still made friends, grew as a person and got just a tad bit smarter and aware of the world around me. When I think about those things, I feel a little better.
I feel the caffeine wearing off, so I’ll leave it at that, grammar mistakes and all. Adios amigos, it’s been a long day.