Still up at 4 in the morning, so I’ll spend some time here.
Thanks to all who wished me well on my birthday this weekend. If there’s one thing I’ve learned throughout the years, it’s to treasure and never take for granted the friends you have. I feel blessed knowing that there are those who are willing to stand behind me, and on Sunday that belief was validated.
If some of you have been wondering, the event that myself and countless other interns through the year, through all the setbacks and postponements, has been officially cancelled. My former CEO made the announcement on her Facebook and also declared her foundation dead. Despite being one of the worst bosses I’ve ever worked for, I hold no grudges against her. I guess I’m a little sad that it’s over for her, which is a strange feeling considering her treatment of the interns during our time there. There’s just something about seeing everything fall around someone that is deserving of my sympathy. I wouldn’t be surprised if she just fell off the map completely with the fallout that ensued shortly after the announcement.
I really couldn’t imagine myself being in this position at this point in my life. I was lucky with the internship earlier, but trying to find something that actually pays is a bit more challenging than I thought it would. I’m already considering more schooling in the fall, which is something I really don’t want to do, but when you’re faced with a job market that’s way too small to accommodate the amount of people in this city in similar situations, it’s a challenge to even be noticed. The only silver lining is that I’m still relatively young, so set backs like these aren’t going to kill me. But in the mean time, the only thing I can do is hope someone takes a chance on me.
The one thing I can never understand is when someone says they miss unemployment. Really? Someone actually said that to me, and it still baffles me weeks later.
Blink 182 told me to stay young. Jimmy Eat World taught me that ‘even at 25 we gotta start sometime.’ Jack Johnson and Coldplay taught me about love. The Gaslight Anthem showed me that it’s OK to suffer, while The Bouncing Souls showed me that there will be better days.
A month into the new dragon boating season and one thing’s for sure, I feel like a first year paddler all over again. But I made the decision to join a more competitive team, went into it knowing that I would get rocked by a tougher coach and being alongside better and stronger paddlers. All of a sudden, I find myself being the mouse on the team. But that’s OK, because I feel like I’m being challenged for the first time in years.