I was offered an extension for co-op yesterday. The decision came suddenly and I was only given until 9 AM today to decide whether I was going to continue working for the agency or go my separate way. I can’t really say that I thought it through, due to the amount of time they gave me to make up my mind, but after thinking it over I eventually declined the offer. When the initial wave of extensions being offered to some of the co-ops went out and I wasn’t one of them, I was resounded to the fact that I wasn’t coming back and that there wasn’t going to be a second chance for me. I looked at what I was going to do from now until the end of the year and thought maybe, just maybe this might turn out OK. Enrolling in classes as a part time student during the summer might give me some time and space to actually take up things that I wanted to do. I said the same thing when I knew I was going into co-op. You’d think that no exams and papers would be somewhat of a bonus, since not worrying about those things would give you so much time to do whatever you wanted. For me, coming home exhausted and working a shift a week at the theater in retrospect took away all the personal time I had.

I’m a guy who believes in faith. It comes from being spiritual and believing in God who can guide us through tough decisions. I’ve never had to make a tough decision in a long time. Most of those decisions were being made for me by outside factors that I couldn’t control, like not being accepted into co-op the first time around for the fall semester – which actually turned out really well going to school instead. This time around, I thought it was going to be the same clear-cut choice: God did not intend for me to stick around the office, he wanted me out and there wasn’t going to be any say in the matter. I was fine with that. In fact, I was glad the choice was made for me.

So for me to out of the blue be offered an extension came as something that gave me mixed signals. All of  a sudden there was an actual choice that needed to be made and I eventually made it. Did I do the right thing today? Or should I have accepted the offer? God wasn’t going to make the decision for me this time, not like the last.

As the day comes to a close, I’m starting to feel a little at peace with what I decided. This whole time I actually missed school and being a part of the whole campus vibe thing. I missed my 9 hours of sleep. I missed being around people I used to hang out with a lot before I got a taste of the ‘real world’. With potentially more time on my hand, I could pursue more things, hit up Portland and possibly Tofino with the homies as well as the Losers at Cultus Lake. The only reason why I would ever go for another term sitting on my butt the entire day answering the same thing over and over would be for the money. I remember Carrie mentioning this on one of my past posts: I’ve got the rest of my life to make money. And it’s true. Right now, I just want to enjoy being young and stupid.

So I’m going to bed, excited at the thought that I’ll be collecting my last paycheck next Wednesday and enjoying a two week break before I get back to school. Goodness knows I haven’t had a solid night of sleep in a very long time. And I’ll be looking forward to that once this is all done.

Posted: April 20th, 2010
Categories: Life, School
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Comments: 2 Comments.
Comment from Jamie - April 21, 2010 at 9:33 AM

Always go with your gut, Matt. I’m sure you made the right choice. Enjoy your summer!

Comment from Anonymous - April 21, 2010 at 9:53 AM

The Lord has answered you. Good Choice.