Second Thoughts

I’m having second thoughts about it.

Not taking that extension back in April was a risk. A big risk. One that had financial implications. While I’m not as broke as I like to exaggerate when discussing it, the future outlook of how much I’ve got to play around with for important things looks grim. I’ve also got to deal with going to school, something that I thought was going to be rather exciting, but after looking at the deadlines I’m looking at, I forgot how much school sucked.

I need a new job, the one I’m at is bringing me down and I guess it’s starting to show. I’m not as energetic about doing my work as I was a year ago. I’m not doing the best that I can do, and I’m not really being the kind of person that I expected people in the same role as I. It’s hypocritical I know. The only thing that’s keeping me going is that I still have the support of most of the managers there. If people still rely on me, I guess that should count for something. Also the fact that finding a job is hard.

On the plus side, maybe not taking that extension was a good thing.

I’ve spent more time with friends than I did when I was still holding down a 8-4 job in addition to a closing shift at Scotia. I’ve got some resemblance of a life now. I’ve got time. Never did I realize how precious time is. Now I treasure it whenever I can.

Things maybe aren’t all bad. But the whole job hunting thing still sucks. Oh and school sucks too. Can’t forget that either.

Posted: June 3rd, 2010
Categories: Late Night Blurbs, Life
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Comments: 2 Comments.
Comment from Jamie - June 3, 2010 at 10:43 AM

Dear Matt-tay, I know exactly how you feel. I have no job and I also recently had to turn down something that would have made my financial situation better. I however suggest taking the advice of British pop star Robbie Williams: “No regrets, they don’t work/ No regrets, they only hurt.” Having a life is more important than money any day.

Comment from Matt - June 3, 2010 at 10:46 AM

you lay down some wise words, jamie. muchos gracias, and i hope your back is getting better.