Why Georgia

I’m feeling unusually reckless these days. It feels like the teenage ‘I don’t give a fuck’ attitude I experienced eons ago, but the feeling exists during adulthood and unlike then, I not only acknowledge but embrace whatever unfavorable outcome comes my way. Oh yes, I really don’t give a fuck and I guess this post is a product of that.

Adulthood, where your missteps are amplified tenfold.

I’m starting my internship tomorrow afternoon, and I’m excited about the opportunity to at least gain some meaningful experience and hopefully get an opportunity to continue on with the organization I’m doing it with. It seems genuine, challenging and may potentially put me in a good position afterwards. The only problem? It’s not a job, which is kind of what I saw myself occupying post-graduation years ago when I first started university. I know I’m not the only person in this predicament, and I’ve come across people that have been out of work for over a year – in some cases still looking – so those people don’t give two shits about what’s been going on with me. Still, when you’ve got an education that while personally and intellectually fulfilling, doesn’t seem to immediately open up doors for you career-wise, you wonder whether you’ve hit some sort of quarter life crisis.

Then there’s the whole female thing.

I consider myself longing, but not desperate so please let’s get that straight. Desperate would imply that I want to be in a relationship now and would resort to extremely unruly tactics to end my current status. I don’t think a relationship is an absolute priority at this point, but as the failures build up, it can be demoralizing. It can dawn on you that the longer this goes on, the harder it will be trying to go forward with this.

It’s 2 AM and I guess I’m just depressed as hell right now.

Posted: October 28th, 2011
Categories: Late Night Blurbs, Life
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Comments: 2 Comments.
Comments
Comment from Carrie - October 29, 2011 at 8:55 AM

You blog more than I, but still… we seem to be the only bloggers now.

Where are you interning at!! Paid intern? Or unpaid. I would hope paid so that you can afford your ticket item purchases. Not that I am making Sammie’s job at helping you save any easier. So maybe I take that back.

Don’t worry Brown Rug! On the female front, it will eventually come. There is a reason for all things is what I believe. Maybe you’re destined to meet her at a rock show!

Comment from Meghan - October 30, 2011 at 1:32 PM

Congrats on the internship! I want to hear more about tomorrow at dodgeball please. We all have to start somewhere and some post-grads believe that they can start at the top, but we all can’t be there.

The females … I’m with Carrie on this one! When the right one comes along, it’ll be worth the wait. It’ll make you realize that every failure has been built up for this great success.