It’s 2 AM

Week one of school has already come and gone and already I’m feeling the pinch. I’ve got a massive 4000 word essay due at the end of October, I actually have to keep up with my readings for this distance education class I’m taking and finally this… policy analysis class I’m taking – while vital towards my career goals – is recipe for disaster. I don’t want to work, but I want the cheese that comes with it, you dig? Everything feels the same still: I’m going to bed at 3 in the morning, I’m waking up later and later and in terms of productivity, it’s non-existent.

Honestly, I’m kinda bummed that I’m starting school this semester. I felt that I had a legitimate shot at starting co-op this fall, but things just didn’t go my way. I don’t understand why – due to the lack of feedback I got on everything – but I guess that’s the way things roll.

On the bright side, I guess it gives me an opportunity to do things on campus that I’ve been reluctant to do for the past four years now: join and actually participate in a club, be a little more social, volunteer and…

Anyways.

I was jamming with my man Henry two days ago. We haven’t jammed together since first year. Quite a revealing session, as I realized how much inspiration was lost along the way when it came to actually trying to create something out of nothing musically. I had a notebook with riffs I wanted to use and build on, but one day it just stopped. These days, the fire to do something is burning brightly these days – more so than in previous years – but in this crazy time I live in, where deadlines and lowly distractions are all I know, it’s hard to find that time out of my day to actually focus and create something nice.

But if anything, what occured on Monday told me one thing: the drive is still there, no matter how crappy I am with this guitar. Aw right.

Posted: September 16th, 2009
Categories: Late Night Blurbs, Life, School
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Comments: 5 Comments.
Comments
Comment from Jamie - September 16, 2009 at 8:34 AM

I know how you feel Matt. I nearly had a panic attack at school on Monday before my first class and wasn’t able to sleep that night (I think I got two hours tops). It was just so loud and there were sooo many people there. I just felt claustrophobic and like I didn’t belong. Hopefully the semester will get better and things well feel all right again. I’m sorry to hear about co-op, but maybe by not doing it this semester something good will come up that you wouldn’t have gotten to do if you were in co-op.

Comment from Matt - September 16, 2009 at 11:29 AM

hope you’re doing ok jamie. i’m like that too unfortunately, getting stressed out during the night is common for me because of how so little distractions there, so my head likes to wander off – hence the post at past 2 AM.

Comment from c - September 16, 2009 at 4:57 PM

I would like to learn how to play more things on my guitar =( ask me to come along next time! I would like to take part in jamming and learn things haha…

Comment from Hank - September 16, 2009 at 5:00 PM

finding a creative output is as important as your academic output. Light the fire under your ass and get it going.

Comment from Matt - September 16, 2009 at 9:53 PM

carrie we shall call you out on a nice afternoon when we can do it again!

as for my creative output… does smashing noobs in interesting ways in WoW count as well?