I guess it’s just a cycle. You feel good about yourself one day, looking in the mirror going ‘who’s that funky dude looking right back at me?’ Then the next day you realize you’re alone, things weren’t as they seemed and hope is just somehow not there anymore. Did I mess up along the way? Am I that lame? Should I talk about it? It’ll probably make me feel better, but I don’t know, it’s hard to find a dance partner this late. Maybe I should give up. Maybe the race is won and I lost. Thinking about it is the reason why these days I’m up all night.

Then all of a sudden, I’m happy again. I go back to wondering who that funky dude is in the mirror when I wake up and I live life. I don’t know when, and I won’t know why. It’s just part of the cycle.

Posted: October 20th, 2009
Categories: Late Night Blurbs, Life, Randomness
Comments: 3 Comments.
Comment from Hank - October 20, 2009 at 11:19 AM

story of my life told from the perspective of matt.

Comment from Jamie - October 20, 2009 at 4:20 PM

I second Hank.

For example, yesterday after my history presentation, I thought to myself: “Am I just esoteric and no one understands me or am I an idiot? Why is everyone giving me the stink eye” Then I got home and talked to a door-to-door salesman for five minutes because I couldn’t get a word in edgewise and thought, “yup, I’m just an idiot and I suck.”

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