So this is the New Year

It’s currently 5:47 in the morning, it’s still dark outside and I’m running on 4 hours of sleep despite turning in early last night. I guess that’s one good thing about not being able to sleep well, I need to wake up early anyways. I have no idea how long I can keep up this 8 AM start time for this new job. It just seems way too gnarly to maintain over 4 months.

I didn’t think I’d ever say this, but I’m going to miss school this semester, especially with all the fun I had on campus this past fall. I’m finally enjoying life on campus, despite only being up there for 2 days a week. Now that I’m going to be heading to Surrey for work instead, it’s going to make me miss it even more. And when graduation hits, I’m going to be at a loss in how to fill that void. I wish I could be a student forever.

But anyways.

There are so many questions, so many conflicting feelings coming into this new year. Do I keep trucking on at Scotia or is my time really up? A part of me doesn’t want to leave. There’s some… unfinished business that needs to checked off before I go. Another part of me thinks the time is now. I’ve been there for over 2 years, and I don’t want to be seen as a lifer. I’m probably one of if not the oldest guy working in my area and one would see that as a sign to move on.

There’s also other matters that need to be dealt with soon. Like sucking it up and saying how I feel. I’m not very good at expressing how I feel at times. Heck, these posts don’t even tell the whole story. I guess there’s that fear of not getting the results I want. But if past experiences have taught me anything, it’s that it’s better to find closure in something rather than let it tear you up and leave it be.

So here’s to the new year.

Posted: January 4th, 2010
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