Posts Tagged ‘co-op’

Faith

I was offered an extension for co-op yesterday. The decision came suddenly and I was only given until 9 AM today to decide whether I was going to continue working for the agency or go my separate way. I can’t really say that I thought it through, due to the amount of time they gave me to make up my mind, but after thinking it over I eventually declined the offer. When the initial wave of extensions being offered to some of the co-ops went out and I wasn’t one of them, I was resounded to the fact that I wasn’t coming back and that there wasn’t going to be a second chance for me. I looked at what I was going to do from now until the end of the year and thought maybe, just maybe this might turn out OK. Enrolling in classes as a part time student during the summer might give me some time and space to actually take up things that I wanted to do. I said the same thing when I knew I was going into co-op. You’d think that no exams and papers would be somewhat of a bonus, since not worrying about those things would give you so much time to do whatever you wanted. For me, coming home exhausted and working a shift a week at the theater in retrospect took away all the personal time I had.

I’m a guy who believes in faith. It comes from being spiritual and believing in God who can guide us through tough decisions. I’ve never had to make a tough decision in a long time. Most of those decisions were being made for me by outside factors that I couldn’t control, like not being accepted into co-op the first time around for the fall semester – which actually turned out really well going to school instead. This time around, I thought it was going to be the same clear-cut choice: God did not intend for me to stick around the office, he wanted me out and there wasn’t going to be any say in the matter. I was fine with that. In fact, I was glad the choice was made for me.

So for me to out of the blue be offered an extension came as something that gave me mixed signals. All of  a sudden there was an actual choice that needed to be made and I eventually made it. Did I do the right thing today? Or should I have accepted the offer? God wasn’t going to make the decision for me this time, not like the last.

As the day comes to a close, I’m starting to feel a little at peace with what I decided. This whole time I actually missed school and being a part of the whole campus vibe thing. I missed my 9 hours of sleep. I missed being around people I used to hang out with a lot before I got a taste of the ‘real world’. With potentially more time on my hand, I could pursue more things, hit up Portland and possibly Tofino with the homies as well as the Losers at Cultus Lake. The only reason why I would ever go for another term sitting on my butt the entire day answering the same thing over and over would be for the money. I remember Carrie mentioning this on one of my past posts: I’ve got the rest of my life to make money. And it’s true. Right now, I just want to enjoy being young and stupid.

So I’m going to bed, excited at the thought that I’ll be collecting my last paycheck next Wednesday and enjoying a two week break before I get back to school. Goodness knows I haven’t had a solid night of sleep in a very long time. And I’ll be looking forward to that once this is all done.

Posted: April 20th, 2010
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Unexpected

I should have seen the signs. When I’m over-confident about something that I think is going to happen, it usually never happens. The same thing applies to this situation, I thought I was going to get extended for co-op, reap some muchos dineros and not worry about money for a while. I’d have also quit my job at the theater – another thing that has weighed on me for a while now. Now I find out that I won’t be coming back and I’ll be back in school a lot sooner than I thought. I knew I wanted to be a student forever, but I didn’t want to jump back into it just yet.

I guess on the bright side it will be the end of early bedtimes and 6 AM wake up calls. I won’t miss those one bit. I’ll also welcome the fact that I’ll have more time to do things. You’d think with no exams and papers to worry about there would be so much time to do things, but when you’re coming home exhausted plus keeping your old job on the side, time seems more wasted on recouping rather than doing something constructive. Maybe with the sun coming out the energy level will be there.

Other than that, I’m looking forward to the summer. And with summer comes summer projects: start practicing more electric guitar, start saving money and cook more which, by the way, I am starting to enjoy (Thank you Thomas Keller). Add to the activities I need to do before the end of summer like surfing, grouse grind and hopefully a bike ride along the sea wall will be things I could do before the end of what I think is my last summer as a student. Oh the horrors of the real world.

And with that, I bid you adieu. I need to recover from all the hits to the head I took today in dodgeball. Tonight I learned that tall white people throw hard. Very hard.

Posted: April 12th, 2010
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Drive

I took the long way home from work tonight. There’s something awesome about just driving along the streets at night that just makes it easier to think clearly for once. With all the things that go on in life, I just need to be in a place where I can just think and not worry about what’s going on in front of me.

In this case, sort of.

Tonight’s drive made me think about the future and what I need to do, because I’ve got so many decisions to make for the summer. Do I partake in a spiritual journey to Fiji for a month? Do I hit up California with the old boys and geek out at Comic con? Or do I sacrifice it all just so I can make a few more extra dollars by doing a second term of co-op? It’s just one of those things that make you wish you had it all, but in the end one has to give. I’m almost graduating from school – scary thought – and I just feel like this is going to be my last chance at doing something incredible before I go off into the so called ‘real world’ – what is that really?

I want to go somewhere that will allow me to better myself spiritually, connect with my God and maybe make an impact on people I have yet to meet. I want to have fun with friends and enjoy whatever is left of my youth. I want to make money and be sure that when I finally realize this ‘real world’ I’ll be able to approach it head on without worrying about putting food on the table. Maybe I’m just making this summer to be something that it really isn’t, but I realize that this might truly be the last true summer I’ll ever have.

I’ll look back on what I wrote tonight and regret everything, because I’m in a state of fatigue – and I should never be writing when I’m completely spaced out. But even if nothing was resolved tonight, at least I got to enjoy some time to myself and for once, not caring about the moment.

Posted: March 7th, 2010
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So this is the New Year

It’s currently 5:47 in the morning, it’s still dark outside and I’m running on 4 hours of sleep despite turning in early last night. I guess that’s one good thing about not being able to sleep well, I need to wake up early anyways. I have no idea how long I can keep up this 8 AM start time for this new job. It just seems way too gnarly to maintain over 4 months.

I didn’t think I’d ever say this, but I’m going to miss school this semester, especially with all the fun I had on campus this past fall. I’m finally enjoying life on campus, despite only being up there for 2 days a week. Now that I’m going to be heading to Surrey for work instead, it’s going to make me miss it even more. And when graduation hits, I’m going to be at a loss in how to fill that void. I wish I could be a student forever.

But anyways.

There are so many questions, so many conflicting feelings coming into this new year. Do I keep trucking on at Scotia or is my time really up? A part of me doesn’t want to leave. There’s some… unfinished business that needs to checked off before I go. Another part of me thinks the time is now. I’ve been there for over 2 years, and I don’t want to be seen as a lifer. I’m probably one of if not the oldest guy working in my area and one would see that as a sign to move on.

There’s also other matters that need to be dealt with soon. Like sucking it up and saying how I feel. I’m not very good at expressing how I feel at times. Heck, these posts don’t even tell the whole story. I guess there’s that fear of not getting the results I want. But if past experiences have taught me anything, it’s that it’s better to find closure in something rather than let it tear you up and leave it be.

So here’s to the new year.

Posted: January 4th, 2010
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Young For Eternity

Doing this co-op job search as me kicking myself over and over again. I wish I was 19 again and instead of taking all these shit courses in school, I took stuff that would actually gear me for something outside of school. Heck I wish I even paid more attention in some of the classes I took. I think it’s fine and dandy that I can identify the symbolism behind the usage of mice, cats and dogs in Art Spiegelman’s Maus or that I can tell you some of the territories – or was it provinces? – that Australia has. But after looking at some of the requirements and the nature of the jobs posted so far, it seems as if I’m not getting an immediate return on my education so far. It’s either that or the right job hasn’t shown itself yet. Thank God I have six more classes to learn as much about the outside world as I possibly can.

And this latest piece of news is just outrageous. Archie choosing the spoiled vixen Veronica Lodge over the sweet girl next door Betty Cooper?? Sorry but there is something wrong with this. But I also wonder how this proposal will work from now on, as the whole premise of the Archie comics was the struggle between Veronica and Betty.

Don’t worry Betty, you still have Brown Rug.

Posted: May 28th, 2009
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