Posts Tagged ‘future’

Drive

I took the long way home from work tonight. There’s something awesome about just driving along the streets at night that just makes it easier to think clearly for once. With all the things that go on in life, I just need to be in a place where I can just think and not worry about what’s going on in front of me.

In this case, sort of.

Tonight’s drive made me think about the future and what I need to do, because I’ve got so many decisions to make for the summer. Do I partake in a spiritual journey to Fiji for a month? Do I hit up California with the old boys and geek out at Comic con? Or do I sacrifice it all just so I can make a few more extra dollars by doing a second term of co-op? It’s just one of those things that make you wish you had it all, but in the end one has to give. I’m almost graduating from school – scary thought – and I just feel like this is going to be my last chance at doing something incredible before I go off into the so called ‘real world’ – what is that really?

I want to go somewhere that will allow me to better myself spiritually, connect with my God and maybe make an impact on people I have yet to meet. I want to have fun with friends and enjoy whatever is left of my youth. I want to make money and be sure that when I finally realize this ‘real world’ I’ll be able to approach it head on without worrying about putting food on the table. Maybe I’m just making this summer to be something that it really isn’t, but I realize that this might truly be the last true summer I’ll ever have.

I’ll look back on what I wrote tonight and regret everything, because I’m in a state of fatigue – and I should never be writing when I’m completely spaced out. But even if nothing was resolved tonight, at least I got to enjoy some time to myself and for once, not caring about the moment.

Posted: March 7th, 2010
Categories: Late Night Blurbs
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