Matt's Blog.

Some random musings:

• I hope this doesn't become a common theme for future posts, but I get restless whenever I find myself unemployed. Granted it's only been a month since I graduated, I remember all too fondly what I went through after coming out of university. Some of my friends have insisted that I should treat this as being 'fun-employed' and I guess, when you're in your early-mid 20s it's not such a bad thing. But at this point in my life, I just want to get on with it.
• Speaking of common themes, I hope I don't format my posts like this in point form again. Unfortunately, these days there's more quantity than quality when it comes to introspective talking points.
• On the other hand, I've been pretty constructive with my time off. Spent some time getting back into my normal running schedule again, playing more music – which was an important goal for me post-grad – and started reading more recreationally. I figure if I'm going to have an entire day to myself for long stretches, I might as well use that time to keep the body and mind fresh.
• I was at the wedding the other day, and the plus one was one of the bridesmaids for her best friend. Walking down that isle, it reminded me again of how lucky I was and just how insanely crazy this year has been. We all need moments like these to reaffirm how blessed we are in life sometimes, and that it really is out of our control. 
• Hope.

Can't wait for the new album.

Haven't had a lot of time to do this for a while now. Life's gotten a little crazy, but the fact that I'm still here means something I guess.

Music and running have been keeping me sane these days, and thank God for that. However, I'm not quite sure if I'll be ready for the marathon in May, and with my school schedule next semester looking disgusting, I think I might be taking a break from dragonboating, and who knows when I'll come back. There's so much uncertainty next year, and I'm guessing this chaos won't end for a while. But that's OK. I'm not a fan of stability anyways.

People have the right to fly
And will when it gets compromised
Their hearts say “Move along”
Their minds say “Gotcha heart”
Let’s move it along
Let’s move it along

And airports
See it all the time
Where someone’s last goodbye
Blends in with someone’s sigh
‘Cause someone’s coming home
In hand a single rose

And that’s the way this wheel keeps working now
That’s the way this wheel keeps working now
And I won’t be the last
No I won’t be the last,
To love her

And you can’t build a house of leaves
And live like it’s an evergreen
It’s just a season thing
It’s just this thing that seasons do

And that’s the way this wheel keeps working now
That’s the way this wheel keeps working now
And you won’t be the first
No you won’t be the first
To love me

–John Mayer ‘Wheel’

'I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there.'

It was a low key 27th for me. Used my birthday pass this year to go out for a run after work, then locked myself up in a room playing the guitar for God knows how long. I've been swamped with school work every day since January, and I told myself that I'd spend today doing anything but. It was nice to – at least for a night – do things that I've enjoyed doing since I was 15. My mind was blank this evening. I missed that.

Thank you all for the birthday wishes. I don't like making a big deal out of my birthday when it comes, but I do make it a priority to express my thanks for those who recognize it.

One of my goals this year is to be more creative. I’ve focused so much this past year on training for my marathon and dragon boating that I neglected the other part of me that I’ve known much longer than either of those two: music. I want to do more in that sphere, and since September I’ve been riding this wave of momentum with my guitar playing that I hope to sustain well into 2014. Maybe actually perform out in public.

Oh, and also clear out this horrible back log on my Amazon Kindle app. I have a handful of books I have yet to read that I bought over the last year. Unacceptable.