Posts Tagged ‘sleep’

Not like I used to

I can’t sleep.

I used to be able to rest my head and pass out instantly since January, but lately I’ve been lying in bed trying to clear everything out of my head and just trying to get some rest. I kid you not, once a night owl always a night owl.

I guess there’s just too much thinking going on lately. I’m terrible at making decisions and stressing out about it. I’ve got until the end of the month to finalize my travel plans, assess my options for a potential school term in the summer and just hope I have enough time to do everything I want before the fall. I also think too much about people… how they are, what they’re thinking of right now, and are they thinking about me or ‘am I just wasting my time.’

Here’s hoping I fall asleep within the next half hour or else I’m looking at an awesome day at work in the morning.

Posted: March 17th, 2010
Categories: Late Night Blurbs
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Quickies

Quick random thoughts, free of the excess that would otherwise take up an entire blog post for each one:

1) Olympics are over, and I am sad. But I do not regret, I had fun and for the most part did what I wanted to do during the festivities.
2) Team Canada may have won gold, but I still prefer a Stanley Cup parade in Vancouver.
3) Now that I know how you feel, would you wait for me?
4) Writing songs is hard. Deadline in April coming up fast.
5) Twitter is addictive. Please join so more people may experience more of Matt.
6) Work sucks, I know. But at least I get paid.
7) Fiji in July? Would it benefit me spiritually? Would I be allowed to come?
eight) And furthermore, if I were to be offered it, would a second term of co-op be worth it?
9) These pictures won’t upload themselves.
10) More ‘beholding,’ less day dreaming.
11) Vox AC30 or a Bogner Ecstasy? Combo amp or cool half stack?
12) I have yet to venture into the art of cooking. Who’s up for helping me out?
13) Sleep is the enemy.
14) March already. Darn.
15) The Fray – Happiness.

I wish the sun would hide some more

Another late night spent doing nothing but jamming away. I feel as if I’m more alive during the night than I am during the day. Maybe it’s because the static is gone and all there is is just silence. The kind of silence that makes you think about things that… keep you up all night. I enjoy that – sometimes. But for tonight, I like it. A night like this, I enjoy being alone with this cheap guitar my Mom got me when I was 16, I enjoy thinking about things that separate me from the reality of it all. I enjoy the company of music and the escapism it provides. I like droning away, kind of like what I’m doing now where when I wake up and read this over again, it won’t make any sense. But I guess it kind of captures the moment right now. I guess that’s why I’m doing this.

In 15 minutes Mom will be wondering why I’m still up when I’ve got school in the morning. I guess that’s my cue.

Posted: November 5th, 2009
Categories: Late Night Blurbs
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Zombie Hour

Random musings at 3:13 AM:

I haven’t been sleeping¬† at normal hours these days – something that has been going on for a long long time. I blame all these theater closing shifts and my odd school schedule for doing this. It sucks, because I’m always taking naps during the day but at this hour I’m wide awake bored. I guess a cure for that would be to hang more with the newly-christened ‘Cineplex Losers.’

It’s currently week six in school and so far I haven’t really gotten into ‘the mood’ lately when it comes to digging into the material. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because of the lack of engagement in the classes, or the fact that my distant education class is just… distant. It’s a really weird semester, and I figure it won’t be the last.

I’m looking forward to jamming more these days – see previous post. I don’t know what kick started the whole change in attitude, maybe because I don’t want to embarrass myself when I start going to the jam sessions at the guitar club at school. I really missed the old high school days where the old band would kick around tunes and we’d spend afternoons bangin’ while getting distracted playing Halo 2.

I also joined a community volunteer club called the ‘Love Your Neighbor Club,’ something that’s also pretty exciting. I think it’ll be cool.

One last thing: my subscription to World of Warcraft expired tonight. Surprised? The reason was simple: there was no time at all to dedicate the amount I needed in order to succeed in that game. With the delicate juggling act of school, work and socializing with my fellow humans, it was impossible to accommodate what pretty much was a hobby that required way too much work to maintain with minimal returns in the end. I’m looking around at some of the top players in that game, and I figure the only way you’re going to advance and be amongst the elite is to have a crap load of time,¬† be willing to restructure your weekly schedule to accommodate your group activities, and a tolerance for a community that encourages being jerks to each other. No thanks.

Oh, and Matt needs a new cardigan and/or scarf. Please link cool clothes so I may buy and look cool in front of chicks and make lame dudes jealous when I walk by.

Posted: October 14th, 2009
Categories: Gaming, Life, School
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