Matt's Blog.

I’m having second thoughts about it.

Not taking that extension back in April was a risk. A big risk. One that had financial implications. While I’m not as broke as I like to exaggerate when discussing it, the future outlook of how much I’ve got to play around with for important things looks grim. I’ve also got to deal with going to school, something that I thought was going to be rather exciting, but after looking at the deadlines I’m looking at, I forgot how much school sucked.

I need a new job, the one I’m at is bringing me down and I guess it’s starting to show. I’m not as energetic about doing my work as I was a year ago. I’m not doing the best that I can do, and I’m not really being the kind of person that I expected people in the same role as I. It’s hypocritical I know. The only thing that’s keeping me going is that I still have the support of most of the managers there. If people still rely on me, I guess that should count for something. Also the fact that finding a job is hard.

On the plus side, maybe not taking that extension was a good thing.

I’ve spent more time with friends than I did when I was still holding down a 8-4 job in addition to a closing shift at Scotia. I’ve got some resemblance of a life now. I’ve got time. Never did I realize how precious time is. Now I treasure it whenever I can.

Things maybe aren’t all bad. But the whole job hunting thing still sucks. Oh and school sucks too. Can’t forget that either.

Quick random thoughts, free of the excess that would otherwise take up an entire blog post for each one:

1) Olympics are over, and I am sad. But I do not regret, I had fun and for the most part did what I wanted to do during the festivities.
2) Team Canada may have won gold, but I still prefer a Stanley Cup parade in Vancouver.
3) Now that I know how you feel, would you wait for me?
4) Writing songs is hard. Deadline in April coming up fast.
5) Twitter is addictive. Please join so more people may experience more of Matt.
6) Work sucks, I know. But at least I get paid.
7) Fiji in July? Would it benefit me spiritually? Would I be allowed to come?
eight) And furthermore, if I were to be offered it, would a second term of co-op be worth it?
9) These pictures won’t upload themselves.
10) More ‘beholding,’ less day dreaming.
11) Vox AC30 or a Bogner Ecstasy? Combo amp or cool half stack?
12) I have yet to venture into the art of cooking. Who’s up for helping me out?
13) Sleep is the enemy.
14) March already. Darn.
15) The Fray – Happiness.